Times they are a changing. Once in a while, we all know… life throws a curve ball. Although tonight it would seem for the Red Sox, that curve ball or no, they are on their game. Four home runs, in a row, in the same inning. It has been years since they have achieved this… an exciting moment for a Red Sox Fan.
But for me, curve balls are different. Although I am successful as a psychic/medium, I still have yet to be successful enough to stand on my own two feet, financially. In the meantime, I have connections to the real world to keep me moving, money wise. I still have rent to pay, and food I need to eat.
Yet, I have always been one who will not take abuse. This past week, my real world job has pushed me a little too far. Professionally, I am the director of a fairly well known dating service, and I am in charge of the local area branch. It has been an interesting job to say the least. I could write a book alone on all the crazy things I hear about in this place. Just the stories of the poor desperate souls who desire to find love. Most of which are not even near ready for a relationship, but yet we promise to change their world for the better. We are the bandage that can help those bleeding souls.
Needless to say, the job can be taxing… but what is even more demanding is the corporate headquarters behind the scenes. The pushing and demanding to make money, but yet not willing to support my team when I need help. Frustrating!!! These people work in an office on the other side of the country and they expect so mush out of people they have never met, nor care about their problems.
I find it interesting that every time I ask for help, no one will return my phone calls. But when they want to bitch, they have no problem finding the phone then!!!
My last straw came on Friday. Just one email too many, complaining, and before I knew it. I was at the keyboard of my computer, typing and sending a letter of resignation. I hit the send key and then panicked. What am I doing? How am I going to survive?
Now a few days later, I am over the panic. They accepted my letter of resignation before I could even think about what I had done. It is amazing how sometimes things just take over. My heart in that moment wanted out of this game. And before I could even THINK about it, I was just doing it. Following my heart, like it was a natural process. I still don’t know where I am going next, but I do know that it doesn’t matter. My heart must’ve known there is something coming down the pike for me, or I don’t think I would have been able to do that.
The moral of the story… Sometimes, when things happen on the spur of the moment, when your heart just takes over… it is better to let it have control. I don’t yet know where I am going, but I can tell you that I have not been this happy in months… my heart must know something I don’t…. it usually does!!
Rainbow Blessings
Lauren Ellen