Lauren Rainbow's Simply Spiritual

Yes, this can mean rare or, fat chance in hell, but really a Blue moon is two full moons in one calendar month. So guess what? You can litterally say that once in a blue moon has actually happened, as this month of May 2007, has two full moons; May 2 and May 31.
To me, this is litterally a month of rare happenings since the last blue moon month was July 2004. What does this mean for you?
I like to call this a time of miracles if you are thinking in the positive mind frame. Since it is twice the power of heightened energy in this month, get your intentions set high and clear for yourself. But watch out for the new moon this month as well; May 16 . As the new moon is a time for releasing. Since the actual “blue moon” is the second full moon of the month. You really want to do much clearing between May 2 and May 16… Best time to do your mental, emotional and physical clearning. Then the best time for creation to in this month is going to be between May 17 to the 31.
Take some time for yourself in that second half. Be a little selfish in the intentions that you put out for yourself. Be crystal clear about your intentions as well. And I mean crystal. For example, A good friend of mine and I were discussing “the Secret” and we are learning that it has a few flaws. He was intentioning checks in the mail, instead of bills, and he did indeed get checks in the mail, but they were never checks he could cash… LOL… always a catch behind those sneaky advertisements. So BE SPECIFIC. See gifts of money in the mail instead!! A word of advice from me… you cannot be specific enough!        But even more, send a little love to Gaia… I cannot stress enough how much she needs the love. Look around youself at the changing weather, and let this be a sign from her that she is screaming for help.
But even more… take a little time to have some fun on Cinco de Mayo. It will be my last day at my job before I move out into the great unknown. I know I will be having fun that night.

Rainbow Blessings
Lauren Ellen

It is true, when you really want the signs to be there… they are. As I had posted earlier in my blog, I made a split second decision a few weeks ago to quit my job. Even though the path ahead is still being paved for me, as it always will be. I have questioned along the way… did I really make the right decision.

Do we ever make the wrong decision? I have officially completed my journey at the dating service, as of yesterday. The company gave me plenty of reasons to leave, even after I had given my notice. Never before had I worked for an organization that had treated their staff so poorly. To have no integrity in your job can add a lot of stress to your plate. I had not realized until a few days after I made my decision to leave, and the stress of the job began to leave me, how much that job had really affected my life. How far away from myself I had really become. And in so many ways, how it had even begun to seep through the cracks of my new and loving relationship. I am extremely grateful for the loving man in my life and the patience and love he has for me. If I were on the other side of this relationship, I do not know that I would have stuck around.

There were so many signs from spirit that I am on the right track. I had an amazingly successful Sunday, last weekend. Grateful again, to be part of a wonderful, woman’s expo in Massachusetts. I had extended myself well beyond my spiritual boundaries and stepped into a place where for once I was a little fish in a big pond. Only to find that I can keep up with the big fish and then some.

I was taking a brief moment in the morning to shop around at this expo, to enjoy some of the vendors. Once I started with psychic readings, I would not be able to enjoy the day again. I happened upon a wonderful table filled with handmade rainbow charka jewelry. Of course this caught my eye, and I paused to admire. The vendor has asked me to put my name in her raffle. I usually avoid this as I do not want to become a part of another email list, but without hesitation, I filled out a slip of paper and dropped it into the jar.

A week later, as I completed my last day of work, I questioned all day, am I in the right space. I left work early, and stopped at my new home, only to be greeted by a loving face. One who, at first, thought I was crazy, but realized himself in the end, that I had made the right decision. The mail had come and there was a package addressed to me. Inside was a beautiful Rainbow Charka necklace, showing up as wonderful validation that I am on the right journey. And the card inside said “A Rainbow for a Rainbow!” Thanks again spirit for showing yourself again. I am so grateful. Much Love

Lauren Ellen Rainbow.

Yesterday, I learned how much really goes into being a mother. At 31 years myself, I still have yet to become a mother in the physical sense. Most of my life, I have denied the desire to have children. Many who know me, tell me I would make a great mother. I myself, have yet to see those qualities.

My friend, Leela and I, treated ourselves to a Kirtan and Satsang with Baba Hariji in Portsmouth on Mothers Day. We really enjoy these high energy, spiritual evenings as a good time to connect with each other and get a spiritual “Awakening”.

On our way, we were discussing motherhood. We both have gone quite far without having our own children, and have both debated within ourselves the desire to do so… one of the common grounds we have shared as friends.

At Satsang, Baba Hariji spoke about motherhood and the tremendous role it really is. One of the most amazing comments of the evening he shared with us, was how it takes more than giving birth to become a mother. Also, that giving birth is not what makes a mother. I have reflected much on this comment in the past day. Being grateful, for my mother and her presence in my life.

The blessing I have been given to have such and open-minded intelligent person in my life as my mother is beyond words at some point. In my 31 years, she has been the best support of my life. In all my craziness, and daring adventures, she has let me be me at all times.

But I have been blessed with many mothers along the way. Many friends of mine, have brought me into their homes and shared their loving mothers with me. I have always joked about being adopted many times over. And for all these amazing women in my life, I am grateful.

Then there is the goddesses above, Sekhmet, Kwan Yin, Mother Mary, Kali Ma, Athena, Sophia, just to name a few of the divine ladies above, who have shared there loving support from above, and the Gaia mother below me, who keeps me here, with her loving gravity, she mothers us all.

Having been in the arms of my guru and spiritual mother Amma. From the moment of my first hug with her, I knew I had found the essence of unconditional love and long to experience it everyday. Just another example of how the essence of motherhood is all around. Mothers are unconditional love.

Recently, I have been given the opportunity to present myself in a motherly way to a very young and adorable being in my life. And it scares me!!!!!. My boyfriend’s son, has been in my life for only a few months. Although our time together is always very brief, I have found myself holding back from experiencing a true connection with the wonderful boy.

Sometimes I feel as though he is holding back from me, but I have recently learned he is only mirroring me. Presenting my fears right to me. Since being with Baba Hariji last night, I realize spirit is bringing me the opportunity to be an unconditionally loving mother. To step into this role, slowly and easily. I pray now to help me embrace this journey with grace and ease.

However, I take a moment to honor and commend all mothers out there. Especially to those who have taken it within their heart to bring motherless children into their homes and love them as if they were their own. There are so many children in the world who need a loving mother, and to all these children I wish them the opportunity to experience this love.

Rainbow Blessings
Lauren Ellen Rainbow