Inspirational Thoughts

Yesterday, I learned how much really goes into being a mother. At 31 years myself, I still have yet to become a mother in the physical sense. Most of my life, I have denied the desire to have children. Many who know me, tell me I would make a great mother. I myself, have yet to see those qualities.

My friend, Leela and I, treated ourselves to a Kirtan and Satsang with Baba Hariji in Portsmouth on Mothers Day. We really enjoy these high energy, spiritual evenings as a good time to connect with each other and get a spiritual “Awakening”.

On our way, we were discussing motherhood. We both have gone quite far without having our own children, and have both debated within ourselves the desire to do so… one of the common grounds we have shared as friends.

At Satsang, Baba Hariji spoke about motherhood and the tremendous role it really is. One of the most amazing comments of the evening he shared with us, was how it takes more than giving birth to become a mother. Also, that giving birth is not what makes a mother. I have reflected much on this comment in the past day. Being grateful, for my mother and her presence in my life.

The blessing I have been given to have such and open-minded intelligent person in my life as my mother is beyond words at some point. In my 31 years, she has been the best support of my life. In all my craziness, and daring adventures, she has let me be me at all times.

But I have been blessed with many mothers along the way. Many friends of mine, have brought me into their homes and shared their loving mothers with me. I have always joked about being adopted many times over. And for all these amazing women in my life, I am grateful.

Then there is the goddesses above, Sekhmet, Kwan Yin, Mother Mary, Kali Ma, Athena, Sophia, just to name a few of the divine ladies above, who have shared there loving support from above, and the Gaia mother below me, who keeps me here, with her loving gravity, she mothers us all.

Having been in the arms of my guru and spiritual mother Amma. From the moment of my first hug with her, I knew I had found the essence of unconditional love and long to experience it everyday. Just another example of how the essence of motherhood is all around. Mothers are unconditional love.

Recently, I have been given the opportunity to present myself in a motherly way to a very young and adorable being in my life. And it scares me!!!!!. My boyfriend’s son, has been in my life for only a few months. Although our time together is always very brief, I have found myself holding back from experiencing a true connection with the wonderful boy.

Sometimes I feel as though he is holding back from me, but I have recently learned he is only mirroring me. Presenting my fears right to me. Since being with Baba Hariji last night, I realize spirit is bringing me the opportunity to be an unconditionally loving mother. To step into this role, slowly and easily. I pray now to help me embrace this journey with grace and ease.

However, I take a moment to honor and commend all mothers out there. Especially to those who have taken it within their heart to bring motherless children into their homes and love them as if they were their own. There are so many children in the world who need a loving mother, and to all these children I wish them the opportunity to experience this love.

Rainbow Blessings
Lauren Ellen Rainbow